Penny ([info]pennyanne) wrote,
@ 2005-11-17 11:34:00
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Current mood: pessimistic

Is this it?
Ok i know I haven't written anything for ages and I know that the only time I ever seem to update this journal at all is to have a moan about something, but hell you don't have to read it. So if your not interested stop reading now.

So Australia was amazing, last weekend (Tombstone) was fun, but it's all kind of causing this black hole of anti climax. I guess I spent so long looking forwrd to the holiday now it's over not really sure what to do with myself. Paul has a new job and life is all pick up and move, I'm sure it's all fine and should be exciting but...

I guess this sounds selfish after a fantastic holiday and stuff but I can't help thinking - Life - Is this it? You grow up, you work a series of boring shit jobs, in an effort to get some money to do something fun (which seems to be over very quickly compared to the time you spent waiting for it), you get married, have kids and die.

I think I have been spending to much time inside my own head in dolly day dream world, but it keeps coming back to the idea you only live once, and what have I achieved so far? Is it better to plod through life doing all the things your suppose to do and end up thinking well was that it?


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[info]ali_ra
2005-11-17 12:39 pm UTC (link)
I had an enormous anti-climax thing going on just after our wedding and honeymoon... then moved on to planning the next thing.
I am worried that once the current thing (the loft conversion) is done, that it will leave another void that I will end up trying to fill by planning something else!! Especially as all of my plans seem to involve spending money, this is not a good thing.
I wonder whether the kid thing (if we choose to do it) will add that element of surprise and excitement into lives... but then again, how different can it be to having cats ;-)

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[info]pauln
2005-11-17 02:05 pm UTC (link)
*hugs*

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[info]oldnick
2005-11-17 04:22 pm UTC (link)
Yes - that's it.
It's not a rehearsal.

You've just done Australia.
On a smaller scale, you've just done Tombstone.

That's two things lots of people haven't done. There are plenty of other thing's you'll do that are good, and that other people don't get around to doing. (Mind you., some of them will do even bettter things. Lots won't).

In other word - yes, it's all it is, but it's not all bad.

*Hug*

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[info]eldelphia
2005-11-18 09:48 am UTC (link)
One of the best things you can try and get sorted hon is a job. You've had a lot of hassles with it and prolly could do with more challenge as you're one of the msot capable women I know. I think it would help. I mean you're stuck with Paul :D so might as well change something else :)

*hugs*

If you want a natter and/or some company - lemme know?

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[info]coallump
2005-11-18 08:16 pm UTC (link)
*hugs*
ditto what ^she said :)

Obviously getting a great job in Bristol now that you're about to upstakes and move is not cool but when you start looking for jobs in Luton-area you need to learn to sell yourself coz you're really talented at a lot of stuff and have so much to offer the right employer (and so much to gain out of the right job hopefully)

If you want some game-playing this weekend, give us a call.
*hugs*

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